Yes, there really is a disclaimer. First off this is a religious rant type blog. If that bothers you please leave. Understand I do not influence anyone to read what is ahead; it is opinion and should be treated as such.

Secondly, I am not here to attempt to convert the blindly faithful to the cause of science. I do not want anyone of faith to have doubt because they read what I had to say, if you feel this might be you, please close the blog now.

Thirdly, this is not an attempt to unite the scientific types abroad, as I do not conform to a strictly science view anyway. I am not seeking to validate anyone who believes anything I do; I am simply seeking conversation, not a following.

Lastly, if this offends you by the end, well, I did warn ya. I'm not going to be ignorant about anything within and I am not going to bash anything if I can help it. This is how I view things, not the fact that is guaranteed true.

Whoo, wasn't that a trip. I was tempted to end the blog here. Let people read the disclaimer and simply say Toodles after. What a hoot that would be. And probably easier than the mess I am going to pry into. Some have BEGGED me not to because they enjoy my blogs but would not enjoy a religious one, to them, I'm sorry, it has been long coming, it is now here.

First the trigger, a book. Of all things a fantasy novel, that gave me the final piece of info (for now) that has brought me to the conclusions I am about to present. The book is simply called "Phantom" by Terry Goodkind, a thick volume 11 of the Sword of Truth Series. I know, I know, Fantasy? Well, without going into a blog about it, Terry Goodkinds strength lies in creating tangible characters who are realistically built in a way to make one think they know them personally. Yes there is magic, yes even a dragon, but the story of the people far outstretches the magic that helps carry it. Anyway, back to where I was going....

Blind faith. Basing your belief in something that has not and cannot be proven or disproved. No matter how it is argued for or against science cannot disprove a God any more than religion or faith can prove one exists. This has been the fault line for centuries, millennia even. Scientists have even been slain for suggesting anything that countermanded the doctrine of religion; a doctrine, I might add, that is consider irrefutable simply because it is old. It is as old as the dirt we walk on and because it is such no one can discredit it.

Age lends much to such a thing. It has a foundation built out of a time that no one's fathers fathers father even remotely can remember. No one can say for sure Noah didn't come down from the mountain with the 10 commandments any more than anyone can claim for a fact that the big bang happened. With age comes supposed truth. Such was the case when the earth was flat. It was believed because...look, it's a flat surface, no curved edges, plus, people who had sailed out into the water...had simply never come back. Besides, it has ALWAYS been said to be flat...must be true. Same with the earth as a center to our solar system or even the universe upon a time, always said to be so, must be true.

Age also lends to the no questions can be asked policy. In the end anything questioned can be pawned off as Gods will because surely, religious books and teachings (Bible, Koran.... and several others who's name escapes me) had been written by a huge power surely not a man. Or even if it had been man, surely Mohammad told him as he moved the mountain? Buddha stopped sunning himself under that BIG tree in order to teach SOMEONE, Allah deemed it so, and God spoke to Peter and said "Write this down, but spice it up, ya know, thee and thou and such, thanks..."

In the end all faith is held on a basis of whim. One wishes it were so, and thus the convince others it is, they raise children and do not tell them they WISH it were so, they tell them it IS true. Until a religion isn't a wish, but the truth for a person or people. I had written a blog some time ago vaguely about whims and wishes. Simply put the only rule I can allow when stating my beliefs is reason. I cannot put wishes forth to form what I view as true any more than I can close my eyes and wish to fly but not at the least flap my arms to make it happen myself. With religion, it's a leap, and if you leap but you flap your arms you've broken faith. If you wince when you leap you are not resolute enough. But if you can leap eyes open and take the fall without ever believing you will hit bottom no matter what no what if's...you have true faith. And to be honest, I am jealous for I cannot rely on faith. I have no proof for which to rest my logic on so I am stuck in life as being a world of science and emotion of our own doings.

In the end...happiness, sadness, crime, punishment, good, bad, everything positive and negative amount to what you will have in the here and now. You cannot sacrifice what you desire in this life as a trade for some supposed paradise where 37 virgins await you and you 13 wives you had in the real world.

I will close this soon with a slight shocker to some at this point. I believe a higher power exist, though this power is not sentient in my mind. The power I speak of is the last link in proving the big bang. The last link that brings us from primordial goop to primordial life. It fills the gaps that science cannot...at least for now. And perhaps not ever. Perhaps science will even prove that there HAD to be a God. No if's and's or but's. Perhaps not. In the end I cannot believe a weekend ritual will make me go to heaven any more than giving in to the urge for premarital sex would send me to hell.

Lastly. Higher power or no. Faithful or not. It doesn't matter, that is your freedom in life, not mine to dictate, nor your place to dictate my choice in science and logic. That is why door-to-door religious salesman are the spawn of the Satan I do not even believe in. They think it is there right to cram what they feel they "know" without any proof mind you, upon me and to attempt a conversion. In the end, live as you feel happiest living, and let others do the same.