Ebil! O_O

Or not, ello ello all. How is everyone today? I'm good, as usual. I'm always good to some degree or another. Life is a mellow even keeled road for me, good or bad there's still the center of that road I try to ride, and take from my journey what I can.

At work yesturday it was slow, as most mondays are. Work was happening but there was hanging out amoung coworkers too. We'd sit and talk, some about what shows they watch on TV. Others the weather. Even about new phones we have coming and how the future looks for the company (it looks good btw). One of my managers was talking with the rest of us too. Thats how it is at work, all are equel in each others eyes and there is no closed doors on communication, not a one. If I wished to talk to the owners of the company I could, though I wouldn't do so without something good to talk about, they're very busy afterall. I digress...

It was brought to my attention I have a very unique laugh. It's distinguishable from most anyone even if I am not visible. It's contagious to some degree, it spreads nicely. It was also presented to me in a certain way, that I cannot quote exactly, but I can relate to you. "Some people laugh at everything, even if it's not funny, like they want to be in the conversation, or be noticed. You, Steve, seem to genuinely see good things to laugh about in almost everything". Which I chuckled at, honestly, and got a point at me and an exclaimation "SEE! There it is!" with a smile.

At first I really didn't know how to take that. Part of me thought maybe it was a bad thing, I almost wanted to be defensive about it. Was I being poked at in fun? Was a part of my behavior being pointed out negatively to maybe make me stop? I don't think so. Those thoughts passed quickly, but afterwards I got to thinking more about myself and why I take life the way I do, which is to say with a smile and/or a laugh when I can.

Life is tough on us all at times. This is just truth, it needs no explaination further then that, it is what it is. Grumping about that fact, or hardening yourself to it doesn't do any good. Infact it's counter productive. Life is hard so you get harder? Where's the good to come in that. It may effect you less but are you living life if you go about in as complete seriousness as you can muster? Maybe the bad doesn't take you down as much as it might some, but that would be only because you are already down. What kind of life is it to live or feel it is worth living like that? It's like hating death so you should keep yourself closer to death so when you actually die, you only have to let go of a little life instead of all you've got.

To me the answer of a tough world and life is hard is to enjoy and celebrate the good things around you. I smile easily, and it's heartfelt. I don't just do it to do it, I genuinely feel the smile, I enjoy whats happening. If I'm breaking my back in some disgusting job I am still light hearted and smiling. I'll joke or chuckle, or do what I can to show others I am light hearted, and hope they catch a little of it. Give me a reason to laugh, even a little one and I will jump on it. Life brings me down with hardtimes and I use my lightheartedness as a stepping stool to pick myself back up again, and it's easy it really is. I cannot tell you how or why, but it truly is.

And at the end of the night I go to bed, looking back on my day and I don't see regrets, I don't see failings, I simply see life. Sure it could be better, but it could be worse. Even if my cup is only 10% full I make the most of it and will never let the 90% empty part haul me under. Let's face it, if life drags you around, whats the point?