That's just the way it is *Que the music!*

Ever feel like you can't lay it all on the table? Ever been there? Talking along, or living life, or in some situation with alot going on inside but only so much showing? You wanna talk it out don't you? Let it all out in some greviously huge sigh and just shout out (figuratively) "THIS IS HOW IT IS!!!!" But you can't. It'd be damaging, it'd hurt, it'd ruin and maim "how it is". Irreverably all would change. Such is life and it sucks.

Sometimes I feel like that's my place in life. I try to live the mellow and even keel. I see all I can see, I think about and process (sometimes too much) "the way it is" all the time. Why? I dunno. Call it OCD. Call it the nice guy in me looking out for everything it can. Call it my failing even. Seeing too much of an open picture brings too much reality to the situation. Knowing how it can be and how it is almost always ends up a shitty comparison. Want it but you can't have it. Wish it but it's not the way it is. See disaster coming but being unable to change it's course. Almost makes you wish you could be numb to it eh?

But it's not all bad. I still enjoy the way I am and wouldn't change it for anything. I'll happily live with what I "know" or atleast think I know and have that be that. If I were more greedy then perhaps it'd be crushing. Or perhaps it'd always get all laid out and my lot in life would certainly be less then it is now. Either way it's all idle speculation. Without action my assumptions are just that. The way I do it, the safe route, for myself, for those I interact with, be they customers at work or friends and family. Laying it all out bald and open is sometimes too much. Keeping some back isn't deceitful, it's rewarding. You may not get all you wish, but you do get some of what you need, and in most of my needs, I am not lacking.

P.S. No this is not about a certain J n J situation. I had this blog started 3 days ago, but am not just finishing it. Enjoy :-)

Gadget a Go-Go

Blog bloggity blog blog blog

All you need is blogs, ba bad a bada, all you need is blogs, blogs is all you need

To blog or not to blog, that is the question

When in doubt, blog.

The only blog to fear is….blogs itself

Damn you addicts (Addict, singular reaaaaly). This is Go Go and I am a blog addict (Helllooooooo Go Goooooo). I had been dry for quite some time but a lady I will only refer to as crazy (or beautiful, take your pick) has convinced and coerced me into blogging once again, so here I am. I’d say I’m here begrudgedly but I’m a horrible liar.

So what should I blog about on this my first blog in a new pure blog medium? First let me say it’s nice to breath here, I don’t get the bad taste of overly done repetitive applications attached to a mess of friend collectors who rank you a number and don’t read what you have to say. Also, NO TOM! God Bless America, I get tired of hearing what updates he’s done to make MySpace better when he doesn’t exist in MySpace anymore. Enough of that world though. This is for the here and now.

Do not expect consistency here. I love to blog but don’t tend to stick hard to doing it often. If life grants me something to blog about I spit it out6 by geeze, but if not, well…not.

A brief summation of life for me. Life is good. I’ve finally found myself in a job I KNOW I will retire with. I have made some amazing aquainences and friends. I’m happy with my health and home. Even my family is superb as always. The only lacking point is the relationship department. Now THAT is a subject for a totally separate and perhaps vaguely whiney blog. For now we’ll just leave it at “I’m available”.

The greatests stresses in my life though MY FRIENDS. Be it a poor choice in a personal relationship, bad planning on life, of just poor luck in cell phones, I’m there by geeze. And some of you definitely push mightily on my stressors, YIKES! But thankfully I can still be helpful. My advice heard, my assistance worth it, problems solved sometimes and avoided others. That’s me in a nutshell, that friend you’ll make that’ll surprise you with just how handy dandy he could be to keep around. Stay tuned, for now we’re sending you back to your regularly scheduled programming, but I’ll be back ;-)